Well, 2012 started out like any other year where I found myself overcommitting my time but enjoying the activities I was involved in. I was finishing up leading a wonderful group of ladies for the second half of the BSF Acts of the Apostles study, volunteering at the St. Francis children's library through the Junior League of Tulsa, working on my nursing clinical doctorate, working full time in the clinic, and staying involved with the most wonderful life group at First Baptist church in Tulsa. Needless to say, most every minute of my week was well planned out.
So this is the point where I can briefly summarize the journey that Justin and I began with our desire to have a family someday. To back up a little, we began to pray for our future children while we were engaged and have prayed for them most every day of our marriage since. We always knew we wanted to have children and even if we weren't able to have any of our own, we both felt strongly about the possibility of adoption as well in our future.
We were married 12-26-09 in the blizzard of 09' if anyone in Tulsa remembers. We were quite a few guests short but the wedding was amazing and we wouldn't change a thing! About 6 months after we were married we decided to start trying to have a child. I was pregnant immediately which took us a bit by surprise but then lost the baby shortly there after. We soon tried again and again became pregnant immediately and lost the baby around 9-10 weeks. This was very frustrating and difficult to grasp but we never let ourselves become discouraged because we knew God had the perfect plan for our family no matter how our family would take shape. We then discovered that I would need a very minor surgery to hopefully correct the problem that was likely the cause which took place in March 2011. We were told the problem is fixed and there should be no problem with having children now which was encouraging.
Well, unfortunately it wasn't that simple as things weren't cooperating like we felt they should. I ended up back at my wonderful OB's office who now felt like I had PCOS which was why I still wasn't getting pregnant and recommended some oral medications that would hopefully help to control ovulation. After several months of trying two different oral medications and one round of injectables it was concluded that I was a "nonresponder." At this point I'm thinking "good grief what is next?" Well my OB then advised me to consult his partner who deals with the more "complicated" patients :) Soon I began taking various medication combinations paired with injectable medications. This went on for many months and finally we decided to go back to the fertility specialist who performed my surgery who suggested 1-2 more tries with the same meds and if no luck, we would begin the discussion of IVF if this was something we were comfortable with.
The good news is, after 2 years of trying, were were pregnant the first month after switching back to the specialist. We were so thankful that the Lord was blessing us with a child but still cautious because of our previous losses. I had checked a home pregnancy test a couple of days before the blood test was done to confirm a positive pregnancy so was pretty excited but also knew that the meds I had taken could cause a false positive. My husband and I are also crazy bird people (yes we enjoy watching the birds at our bird feeders) and the morning of my blood test, God sent me the most beautiful golden finch to our feeder and since then we have seen several others on big days that we know is God's reassurance to us to not be anxious in any situation because He is always in control. After all if "His eye is on the sparrow" then His eye is also on me!
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